I’m not sure why it follows like this but whenever I have a few days of admin and formatting, placing and structure, cleaning and calibrating — the stuff I need to do to make sure that the next few days or the week ahead is better I get into this lull headspace where I forget the value of doing it.
It’s like an anxiety of stress that I should be chasing down any energy thread that’s sitting there nagging me to unravel. Yet, that thread will be there next week after I’ve done all my calibration — balancing what’s important right now, sorta now and coming next is a real skill in this ever changing world.
My daily stoic book summed it quite well yesterday when certain words jumped of the page with ‘external things can’t fix internal issues’ — it’s so golden, bright and pure that it sears through the page like a perfectly timed reminder (remember january is clarity) unpacking those issues makes all the difference even if your brain wants to race ahead.
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I worked out that my frustration energy was really at the time splicing of chores that need doing vs creative time — something that I know we all battle with on the daily basis, pushing vs pulling, stopping and starting.
Today, well right after I’ve finished this in fact I’ve gotta go into straight chores, I have to otherwise the rest of the day will be upended by it and actually it’s only really going to take me maybe an hour to get them all done anyway. I truly believe that life logistics are best served with at least two people, if you are both doing it you half the time or 2x the output.
I can’t imagine what that’s like also in a commune, pretty slick I guess, lots of momentum energy with everyone doing their part. Anyway, I digress.
I’ve got the usual life admin chores to do first thing but I’m also intending to push through to get everything I need to be able to have a good sprint for the next week — I’ve already done the links and assets review part — that’s actually in much better shape than it’s ever been in and I’m excited to share that with you as a longer form post once it’s activated and up and running.
read attentively and deeply
Those were the words today from the daily stoic so I guess in some ways I’m on the right path and in the right headspace too, I guess that’s the issue with an always connected, on demand world is that we want to be satiated on the quick win, the fast turnaround, the like, the upvote — even when it has no impact on us in the physical.
Someone you just need to gorge on the words, to let your body catch up with the brain, to not over evaluate your circumstances but instead return back to the usual flow state.
I know I’ll get the ‘right chunk’ of time done today even if it’s not a finished product, it’s all leading into the potential of the end result, I have to keep on reminding myself of that when my body has to go through the chores while press pause on the chaos energy of the brain wanting to flex down multiple paths. Meditate instead, clear the mental coffers — the words, the space, the end results will come.
__humble x