Little Name; Bigger World

As a young women I started becoming very curious about who I am. Not only in an inspirational finding level but deep down to my roots level. Growing in age I heard about Russia this Germany that within our politics and past occurences in history, but I never took in part of the realness it played in my life. Let me break it down into more of a bio..if you will so kindly bear with me.
My fathers side had more of a Eastern European heritage long before my existence existed. Long before a lot of my living relatives could more or less know about as well. My Mothers side of the family is more of a difficult ponder to me....
She had been raised with Russian blood along with who knows what. My grandmother being PA deutsch was an amazing find as well. Not knowing much about this long forgotten root of the Balak name I carry, I look. I wonder. And i observe. Some day, I truly plan on finding more truths, more culture, more liveliness that makes up every atom of myself.