Very well written my friend & things i never knew about you. But im very familiar with Bipolar disorder I have a very good gf of mine of 18yrs who has it not sure what level she is but shes on a few meds & ive witnessed some bad breakdowns in the past with her. I know the struggle is real just like I deal with Depression & have for years! Your disorder exists girl & ive got nothing but love for you! Long distance hugs