Dear diary.
I don't have any recollection what I did these past two weeks since I've joined Steemit. My mind seems to have been fixated on this website until I finally became self aware of time again. I noticed I haven't showered for days, my clothes are smelly and my hair is sticky and gross. And I haven't spoken with anyone it seems, I dont remember, I've cancelled plans and declined when the phone rang because I didn't want to get distracted.
My family is starting to worry about me, Steemit, it's unusual of me to act like this. I do have my creative periods which I withdraw from everyone but I am still available to reach. It's different this time, I don't know how to explain this. Is this what junkies feel when they are addicted, drifting away for days while being under influence of something?
I'm trying to remember what I did this two days alone and nothing, I remember nothing but read the posts on Steemit and I don't even remember what I read. And Why am I still here and why am I writing this post now? I should go take a walk in the sun or take a shower, but no im glued in front of the computer browsing Steemit. Is this how addiction starts?
It is unhealthy to be like this, I need to stop and take a break. It's like those warnings I got as a kid playing video games, "Take a break after every two hours of playing". But I never really took those break, I was always a junkie. Weak for technology, video games and internet are two of my worst addictions and but I had outgrown from it, I had succesfully set my limits but Steemit brings this feeling back again. I'm a kid again. When did I join again? 07 July. Time flies.
I should take that walk now. I should take a shower. I need this break. This has been a weird experience.