Disclaimer: Please mute me if you are easily offended, my posts are intended for open-minded 18+ adults only.

So although, I'm getting flagged left & right .... I'm not gonna let it discourage me from posting.
Hive account@mattclarke wrote a post about me 2 days ago,
https://steemit.com/censorship/@mattclarke/a-bit-of-perspective-on-our-nsfw-controversy-sfw-post
saying he sees me as an emissary.... I really appreciate his perspective and that he took the time to write it. :)

Anyways, one of things I intend to talk about in my blog posts, is about how my day went ... on days that I do work, and also, other related blabbering and/or ranting. Sorry, my writings always have a ton of run-on sentences in them, by the way.

Today, I worked for Brazzers.

Last time(& first time) shooting for them was a year and a half ago.... but my first scene I shot for Brazzers.... was very awful, in my opinion. I had unfortunately got tonsillitis so severely, that I wasn't able to eat/hardly able to drink water for the two weeks (was in hospital 3 of the days) before my shoot.... so I was skinnier than I'd ever been (as an adult), 90lbs, I really felt super uncomfortable being so thin. Being that tiny, is not a good look for me. I'm usually at least 112lbs, and the most I've been able to get up to.. is 118lbs(not including the time I was pregnant and got up to 135lbs). I basically have to eat constantly to be able to maintain my weight because I have such a fast metabolism, I have to over-eat constantly & ingest lots of protein, if I want to try to gain weight.... like I said in a previous post. I didn't want to cancel the scene and have there be a chance that they wouldn't book me again since was my first shoot for them, they had an option to reschedule me after finding out my health situation, but still wanted to shoot me. I was an 'amish' girl in that shoot, I did my best, considering my looks weren't on point how they usually are.

Today, getting to shoot for them again finally, after a year & a half.... was a big deal for me. I had been hoping and praying they would give me another chance to show how much better I could perform and how much better my body looks when not that skinny. So I'm super grateful I got that opportunity today. I memorized my lines, prepared many options for the specific kind of wardrobe for I was asked to bring on my callsheet, and bought a new strap-on recently for this scene too. It was a GG (which stands for girl-girl) scene initially, but then I got an email from my agent saying it was changed to a Rough GG scene & that I get to be the domme! Which made me even more super excited for this shoot!! I've never gotten to do a shoot where I get to be a domme, didn't have much experience doing that either until me and my girlfriend started dating over the summer.... so I feel fairly confident to be able to perform well dommeing by now. When I was ready to leave for my shoot this morning, I checked my phone and realized my babysitter was supposed be at my house 10 minutes ago to give me a ride/watch my son for the day, was trying to be 15 mins early to set... as I usually am, since punctuality is a part of professionalism. But her alarm didn't go off I guess, so I was calling her over and over, having a panic attack. Let my agent know the situation, and shoot was potentially going to be cancelled if she didn't answer the phone. She finally did, and rushed over here super fast, my agents were able to call me an Uber, and babysitter got here right when Uber showed up, thank goodness... day was saved!
& Lucky me, they picked the best female co-star to work with me!! She's so sweet, super cute, fun, and adorable! Her bubbly personality and thoughtfulness in many aspects of how she acts... is incredibly attractive to me. I love people who aren't afraid to be themselves, and I'd definitely consider her someone who is true to herself/has a great head on her shoulders from talking/spending time with her today. I'm very grateful to have met her and worked with her, always good to meet genuinely good-hearted people. Everyone in Brazzers crew is super awesome too! They are all really nice, professional, and work efficiently to make things go as smoothly as possible! Overall, I had an amazing day! and to top things off, I found out the director called their casting person after the scene to tell her how great I performed, and casting person told my agent that he said that! I am extremely grateful to live the life that I do, truly.
Here's some behind the scenes photos from today!

I'm going to LA on Friday... to shoot some buttsex with Owen Gray for Aiden Starr-Evil Angel on Saturday, then flying to Florida that night after my shoot, shooting a bondage/bdsm BG (which means, boy-girl, no anal) scene the next day. So I'll prob have time to post about those shoots on Monday at some point! Much love to all you rational Steemians out there! <3

NSFW (due to subject matter, no nudity in this post) ,shot for Brazzers today!