This is my sorry excuse for an office space.
It’s looked like this for over 9 months.
My vision board for 2018 is empty...
I told myself it was because we got a pup and he wouldn’t let me work if he was around so I had to work upstairs 🐶
He’s now a full grown dog and I’m still nowhere near working here.
I asked myself (and my husband) the question ‘why’ just a few days ago.
And just that question alone made everything crystal clear.
It’s not fun to realise it but it’s a step in the right direction!
Do you want to know why?
Because of DISAPPOINTMENT.
This desk symbolised to me what didn’t go right over the last year, where I feel like I failed, where I put myself out there and it didn’t work out.
It also represented the consequences of painful decisions where I invested in myself (and didn’t reap a return) and where I made mistakes that felt overwhelming.
It was a stark reminder of unmet potential, unrecognised dreams and painful relationships.
So once I realised that... yeah it made PERFECT sense why I was avoiding sitting there like the plague!
So here’s what I’m going to do:
Sage the hell out of the area to clear the old, stagnant, stuck energy
Do a new vision board of what feels real, good and true for me NOW
Get rid of any mess and clutter
Make the space feel pretty, supportive + empowering
And then I’m going to get to work on continuing to make my dreams a reality. I’m going to serve, I’m going to share and I’m going to step into more of who I truly am.
Sometimes the most powerful realisations can come just from asking the simplest question, WHY.