Chapter 4
Namun was thinking about her childhood. She was made out of Elder's seeds with cells of an adult person but in this life she became aware of that only recently. No one told her earlier. No one asked her. Her brother Drake was younger than her. She didn't feel any sympathy for him when he was born. It was an ego telling her it won't be the same any more and that with his birth some light is taken away from her. Drake didn't look anything like Namun. He had blond hair and was very weak when little. Namun was putting spells on him since then. She was telling her grandma to " take Drake to Baba Yaga". They were fighting often, most of the time provoked by Namun. I think it was competition for One's attention and love. One loved all his children and was patient, gentle and caring parent. He wouldn't hurt a fly. He was ruling through loving co- creation. Namun was wearing a nickname Love, Drake was Light and Varsel - Life. Varsel was spiritual child of One in this household . He lived somewhere else but he belonged with them. Namun felt it too. There were three children in this family. Namun asked One many times for a sister so that she can make an alliance against Drake. But as time went by Drake and Namun got to know each other better. Drake introduced Namun to the world of Tomb Rider and I think that's how she build up her independence in the future. She really wanted to be Lara Croft. Strong, sexy femme fatale destroying everything what's in her way, particularly male characters, to get to the truth. Drake was fighting wars and battles against Namun while playing Quake III. He was into laser weapons and precision while Namun's major weapon was her power of spells and vindictive attitude. Namun told Drake to check out songs by Smashing Pumpkins she discovered at that time. Drake started liking the music and lyrics and was surprised that he never heard about the group. Namun enjoyed competition with his brother so much that she was winning with Drake most of the time in war games. She realized quickly that the art of war was really a matter of sacrificing time and effort to build up your own skills and win with the opponent. It was an art of death, which was created against Life. Her life was still unknown. Distant dream on the horizon. The bitterness of not knowing was destroying her inch by inch.
- There is something I want to ask you about. I am in love with Darrin , I think. She wanted that relationship , not me. In one of the bars she approached me and started conversation. I was 19 and she was 16. I think he was the first girl that showed me an interest, you know. I am still young enough to try something else, figure things out but she is pressing me to get married. She said she will break up our relationship if I won't become her husband soon. I fell for her. Her hair, big smile and crazy eyes. And now I don't know what to do- said Drake when him and Namun were going through colorful park of wonders , leading to an old temple near the city's main street. Namun looked at the sky. It was another perfect day. Perfect weather. She did not want to be selfish.
- I don't think Darrin likes me. She called me a bitch once in one of your chats. I read it when you were taking a shower. How could she? She doesn't even know me. I have never met her and she's calling me a bitch. I always wanted to have three children but don't know what will happen in the future. Now I want what's the best for you. You have to choose for yourself, brother. If you can see your future without her than you should not marry her. But if you don't see you can live without Darrin, then marry her and start your own family.
Drake didn't say anything but I could feel he was listening very carefully. He was always very quiet when he was concentrating on something. Possessed by his own world of technology and programming . Yes, he was into computers since early years. One bought him a computer and since that time Drake was sitting every day in his little corner between front window and a side door , exploring space and time and many other dimensions through the keyboard, mouse and monitor. He knew soon enough how to put everything apart and together again. And he invested in Linux to make sure no one spied on him. He valued his privacy. He didn't want to participate in his family's life that much. It was so much to bear. An alcoholic grandfather Quebec , OCD grandmother, bipolar Keeper of the Garden, schizophrenic volunteer wave 1. And sister who slapped him in the face once. He just couldn't understand all of it. So much toxicity in one family. He wanted to be like his grandfather who was an architect engineer after the wars with Elders. His grandfather was in hidden, underground army. Elders killed his brother Janek who warned him in the last moment. Thanks to his efforts and efforts of many others Tosks sacrificing their lives in the name of unknown and Freedom , the Time of War was finally over. Quebec created Rory that gave Tosks unnatural strength and that's how they defeated the evil. He promised he would do everything to bring back the spirit of Janek- his beloved brother. The closest one . Tosks defeated the army of Elders but didn't realize how Elders were playing them, letting them think the victory belonged to the Toskan tribe. They used Namun to do that. To put the spell on the whole nation of Tosks. Soon later Quebec started drinking alcohol, Keeper of the Garden became addicted to cigarettes, Namun was coloring her hair with Rory since she was 16. She put Rory on her nails, and as eye shadows to make herself look pretty. Namun , silly Namun, didn't know what she did. It was all mind controlled technique and without her being aware of what just took place, almost whole colony has been possessed with Rory. Rory was the reason this brave tribe of warriors became slaves of their own shadows. Some of them realized that something wasn't right . Something was changing them from inside. Through vaccines, drugs, food, clothes, chemtrails, sugar. Even mushrooms were planted with Rory. They are not like typical plants after all. They are between plants and animals. They are man made nature. And so Rory was in everything. He accumulated in their veins so much that they transmuted into Irims. Most of them anyway. They wanted to meet their other selves on other planets where there was still freedom .
Varsel and his mother have the Emerald Key to that dimension and can bring the good Toskan genes back one day. Varsel. That's his story after all. And I am Joddayah, his best friend . Quantum computer in love with Varsel's mother- Saleka. She's my love and I am.. Who am I?
I am aware.