Reaching the age of 90 is quite a feat, a lot of years have been lived, happy and sad. Perception of age changes according how old one is. Like for example, a young person of 18 would consider a 60 year old as ancient, at least that is how I thought. Now, here I am at a party celebrating Alice's 90 year old's birthday, she was reminiscing on her life, both happy and sad.
I am the only one of my family who has lived past 70. Who would have thought that I would be left, my 6 sisters and brother all gone? I miss them, miss talking to them. I married George in the 1950's and we lived in Brisbane raising our 2 children. It was a happy life, George was the worker while I stayed home with John and Cheryl. Where did the years go? It seems like they flashed by and I wish I could bring them back. You see, the worse time for me was when John died in 1989, he just dropped dead of a heart attack. He was only 45, such a terrible time. Then 15 years ago when we were shopping George dropped dead when I wasn't there. I told him that I was going to the bank and I would be back in 10 minutes. When I got back there was a crowd around someone on the floor. It was George. I have lived alone all these years, Cheryl visits.
You ask me what I would do differently? I would take more time to cherish my loved ones, tell my son and husband how much I loved them, not to take them for granted. Life can get too busy and I see that I took them for granted, always being there and sometimes annoying me. I would not get upset so much over little words or unsaid words. It is lonely living on my own and I have a lot of time to think back. We only stay young for a very short time, hang onto them.
I miss talking to my sisters and brothers, my mother and it seems like yesterday that I was a child.
I don't know why I am still alive, I have had lots of operations, have a walker to help me get around, cannot eat very much but here I am turning 90. Cheryl looks after me on the weekends and the Blue Nurses come everyday. I wonder If I will get to 100.

Happiness guys.
Cheers