I will be leaving my parents home today evening to head back to the city. I am not sure how to describe this overwhelming feeling. I used to be the soul and heart of this place I could almost feel the beating heart of my mother who later left us with a terminal illness. After her departure the nights no longer glittered nor did the morning sun shone as brightly as it did the walls no longer felt silent and I no longer had to fight back tears while going back to the city. But today and now I just come here and seek my own corner as my brother’s kids prance around and I still a new life in this place. And leaving for me almost seems like I was not even here.