We spend our entire lives trying to figure out who are we. As a woman, my hormones shift so much, that each week I feel like I am constantly metamorphosing. Like a cycle in my personality. To some that may sound unsteady, but for many I think it is just reality. I see memes on social media that asks if you are a Dorothy, Rose, or Blanche (Golden Girls). Does it really matter? I think we all are pieced together with parts that may be cynical and practical like Dorothy, and at times we may be naive and optimistic like Rose, or just self-absorbed and flirty like Blanche. Our personalities and who we are don't always have to be static.
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I went through something hard about 7 years ago and it changed me. I let go of a lot of friends, or people I acquainted myself with. Through the wreckage, I held on tight to 3 friends. Recently, I was thinking about why I kept these 3 ladies around. What was it about their friendship that I wanted despite wanting to ditch all the others. I thought about who I am around each one of them. It is so different, and my friendship with each of them is so dynamic.
My best friend is Beth. When we met, I was only 13 and we were both in a harder phase in our lives. We were each's other's saving grace during that time. She makes me want to be a good person. She is so loving and good to others. As much as I'm not the conventional woman, she is so opposite of me in that way. She is great with family, cleaning, cooking, etc. and she makes me want to be better at those things. Plus she is my sounding board daily... and I mean it when I say we talk everyday!
Then I have a Tasha, everyone needs a Tasha. She is truly one of the few people I know that doesn't ever seem like she questions herself. She doesn't have time. She works harder than a lot of people I know. She is just a get it done kind of person. When I talk to her, she just makes me want to be suck up my pity party and kick life's a**. And it's not because she says those things to me, she is actually quite empathetic, but it's because that is exactly what she does.
And last, but not least, I have Tiffany. When we see each other, we immediately burst into chatter and laughter. She brings out the fun and rebellious side of me. We met in art class in high school. She was a senior, and I was a freshman, so even after she graduated she would call the school to pretend to be my mother to help me skip school. Together we are artistic, and to some we may be even a nuisance. She helped me embrace a lot of my emotions in my teen years, but she also helped me gain a voice and become confident.
I guess this all goes to show that we don't have to wear one mask in life. I like how my friends help bring out different parts of myself, and they are all parts of myself that I like. In reality, we should have friends who make us be exactly who we want to be, even if it's in the moment. Life is too short to try and cling to one thing. Instead of trying to subscribe to something, I am just going to accept that life is dynamic, and that is how I want to live it. So, if you get to a place where you are asking "who am I," just try to soak up who you are in the moment and what you like about it. ;)