I constantly have days where I am getting better, but for most days I do what I should not. I mess up, make mistakes, say the things I should not say and do the things I should not do. My thoughts, my actions, and my purpose for allowing my thoughts and actions to direct my life are consistent. What is inconsistent is the ability for me to say yes when I should say no, and say no when the answer should be yes. I need a covering, I need s blanket of protection. I need an addiction that will keep me in a good standing, when I deserve nothing but punishment and pain. I am addicted to Grace & Mercy, the family of twins that I have been adopted into because of the power of Jesus resurrection. I do not deserve Grace, for she covers me from the death I deserve. I do not have a right to Grace, for she protects me from the final destination of Hell. I am addicted to living a life of righteousness, but I needed something from the Savior to allow me to have that life, and that life more abundantly I do not deserve. Grace & Mercy, the addictions that I will overdose on to survive.
2 Corinthians 12:8-9 Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this, that it should leave me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.