Many people suffer with depression and so do I because I have bipolar disorder. Life is exhausting for me, I hate getting up in the morning, I can't sleep, I over think things.
Does it make me any less of a person than you? The answer is NO, I just analyze things differently to you. I see the world in a different setting compared to you. Just because I am battling a mental illness does not make me weak. It makes me strong because I chose to keep fighting, I chose to seek help and get medication too help me cope with everyday life. Some people do not understand what it's like because you have never had to live in the shoes of someone that is constantly fighting a war within their own head. Your thoughts can become so overwhelming sometimes, at times I just want the world to stop so I can get off.
Your emotions are like a roller coaster one moment you are happy, sad or angry. You don't even know why? it just happens and you can't control it. Know this I do not seek sympathy from no one, I am sharing the facts because there are so many people in this life that is fighting the same battle I am. People look and point fingers and treat me as if I do not belong just because I am different. You do not see me judging you so do not judge me if you do not know my story. No I am not crazy my brain just never knows what emotion or feeling to apply when, and most of the time it's up and down there is no balance. Insomnia kills me because I can never stop thinking or hearing the thoughts raging on in my head, I can be awake for 48hours and keep going. It is the worst thing to be tired and all you want to do is sleep but no your thoughts never seem to know when to shut up do they!
No matter how bad things has ever gotten I have always found a way to make it though, to keep on going because life is beautiful you just need to find the things that make you happy and hold onto to them.
If you are battling depression too, I hope that you will find motivation in my words and strength to keep fighting, because we are strong people even though we are fighting our own war...
"The bravest thing I have ever done was continuing to live when I wanted to die". - Juliette Lewis
