Hey there, really sorry to hear you are going through that! I haven't had really bad panic attacks in over 20 years, but I remember how scary they were and how impossible it was to just "talk myself out of it" or for anyone else to. I used to think I was going to have a heart attack. I hope you can find a way to manage it and that the volcano doesn't turn out to be as big a deal as it could have been. It sounds like you are out of the biggest danger area, not that that makes any difference to how you feel. Look forward to reading your stories.