Im going to make an observation that might help about something i think you may be doing without realizing Jeff. You were formerly a substance abuser with alchohol and nicotine and maybe whatever else that we dont know about. Its great that you stopped all that but i cant help but notice something. You sure have been talking a lot about cannabis lately. This is very common for drug abusers to switch from one drug to another. I know cannabis is touted as the natural mirical whatever, but it is still definatly a drug. I think a truely free and pure healthy person would require no drugs at all. So ask yourself, and really think about this and be honest, are you just trading one drug for another and still stuck in a rut of addiction?