Getting lost along your path is a part of finding the path you are meant to be on.
But what is this path and how would you ever know which way to go?
The last little while I have been struggling with a couple things. Is this reversed culture shock? Or is it because I need to just grow up and do this the adult way!
I left my steady regular life in 2011 and travelled and lived in mainly South East Asia and Australia for the last 6 years. It was a time where I got to be me and just enjoy living life. Plus I got married and had two babies! About 9 months ago we moved back to my home country, the Netherlands.
So here I am with my husband and two children. (Almost 1&3 years old) We thought;we have to be responsible! And wanted to be closer to my friends and family. So we came here.
We found a house,I got a job and my husband is trading crypto currencies and looking after the children.
Everyone told us that they are so happy to have us bac here. So we are having lots of time with friends and family you think, right? No.. unfortunately that's not the case. People are so individualistic here and everyone is just doing their own thing. It's great! for them.. but it hurts a lot in my heart. I guess because I expected something different. Because I expected people to care. And as we moved here I just thought about having to be responsible for the children as that's how I was taught to live. And of course I also thought it would be nice to get to some help with the children. Because it's f*@&$! in tough being a parent to two little gremlins sometimes with no time to yourself and your relationship!
So I am starting to think that maybe ... maybe this won't work for us. We don't want to live a standard life. Live to work for a boss in some meaningless job then try to make up for it by buying lots of shit and living life with my own little family. So that's supposed to be life.
I have to say I am feeling a little lost.. but I have got some great ideas to lift us up to get us to where we want to be.
I am So curious if anyone is dealing with the same or something similar? Is this reversed culture shock and in a supposed to get used to living like this or should I just grow up and suck it all up and do it? Because I am very tempted to throw it all away and follow my own path!
Much love to you all and I'm just hoping to connect to some similar souls. ❤️