Bleeding with money that is, and thank goodness my siblings have two children in their families but one, which is my sister who has three children. I myself is just not really approving about my two brother's number of children, it seems so little for an having an offspring considering that each of them and their spouses are employed and are way over to afford to raise a bit more number of children. But it is too late now because that is just what they wanted, to have a small family, probably just to make their lives more at ease and comfortable and less complicated.
Anyway this coming holiday seasons I myself is also getting a hit. My nieces and my nephews will be expecting some gifts from me so I just have to at least make their visit here worthwhile by gifting them some cash. I really wanted to make them happy but it is also a season of thin for me since I have no more funds left because all are just used up for me expensive medicines.
I am actually wanting to be more generous to my family but with the bear market clawing down against our digital assets to a standstill or even pinning it further down it is hard to cough out cash since money doesn't grow from trees. It is earned with blood, guts, and sweat and in my case via proof of brain but just the same it is hard.
It is just a miracle that I am able to earn online via our friends here at steem platform because I really have no more clue in earning online because I have no talent and skill and my brain is already fried from years of dialysis and medicine use judging by the fact that when I am praying I am forgetting what I wanted to say as my mind momentarily goes blank.
I just have to at least give something to my sibling's children and I am still thinking to give my nurses their respective gifts or I might not. Depending on the situation I might just decide to forgo with it all but again I remember when I was still a kid I would go to my relatives from my grandmother's brother's house and hope to receive from my Aunts and Uncles there, the ones that I just remember now are my Aunts that gave me some form of gifts so I just have to put myself in my nephew's and niece's shoe for that matter and give them what they are expecting. But they have many godmothers and godfathers anyway so even if I won't give them it is just a drop in the bucket lost for them.