Today I just chose not to eat anymore because I am so breathless that eating drowns me not to mention having to drink some fluids after eating. I still have about more than a day to survive for my next dialysis so it is just like an eternity in waiting for it. I am just glad that I have the steem platform or community that I am distracting my mind with so that I could at least mentally not feel what is happening to me currently.
The problem had risen from my nurse adding more than a kilo of dry weight to my body after dialysis, meaning she is leaving an extra water to my body and that is a problem because I feel that I am bloated already in the first place even after my dialysis and instead of taking out more fluids from my body they are still adding more water.
So that would leave me to have less capacity to drink more water in-between dialysis considering that I am not loading much water in my body. I feel threatened with my life because of that because they might do it again and will leave me like unable to eat anymore much less to drink.
So now I am really thinking that a peritoneal dialysis would be fitting for my condition because for one thing I do not have to go for my dialysis twice a week and mingle with people whom I do not know or I do not like. Preparing for my dialysis is really a hard task now because it is just a chore that I am not liking to do as it requires me to go to the bathroom in times that I am so breathless like today and it really like an unimaginable hardship which I am just still surprised why I am surviving it.
Now I have joined a local Peritoneal dialysis group in Facebook and I inquired there and I have learned that a patient in more than three years as a Peritoneal dialysis patient haven't experienced an infection. So that just dissipated my worry about infections and such maybe if we are really following the methods then the patient would not experience such complications.
I also have confirmed that the diet and fluid intake is not that restricted and much liberal unlike in Hemodialysis where I could only eat freely a moment before dialysis (which is the time that I do not have much appetite) or even during treatment where before treatment I could no longer eat anymore because of the cumulative effects of toxins particularly from my Parathyroid medicine.
The only cons that I am seeing is the work for exchanging fluids like the draining and the introduction of the dialysate fluid in my peritoneal cavity, the use of surgical gloves and surgical mask, the disinfection process, and if it happens for me to get an infection then I will have to go to the city to have it treated.
My government insurance could cover most of it and it isn't much of a problem regarding sustaining it with financial needs so I am just really contemplating now because the only barrier about my plan is my mother who is really thinking that the idea is not good but I am now in need of a relief since my dialysis is not that good anymore. May God help me with all my plans and goals.
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