A 2D Echo Cardiogram is a medical test to visually see if my heart has a disease already or not. It would measure things like the size of the heart or if there are any blockages or maybe scars I have no clue. Definitely it will tell me the condition of my heart so if I would see that it will be so then I might not be able to get my needed Parathyroidectomy and surely will sadden me.
I wanted that test to get done for me to have a clue if I would be qualified for a possible parathyroidectomy which is a procedure to take off my parathyroid gland (not entirely) so that my bones would no longer leach out calcium out from my body and therefore give me an ease about my joint pains and my bones will re-mineralize like normal again. But it will surely wipe-out my body pains.
Definitely my heart is already big due to my history of having hypertension and hypervolemia for an extended period of time. But even though that was the case I am not feeling anything about my heart, no chest pain or anything like that but sometimes maybe due to hypertension my heart "quivers" or skips a beat but the test would reveal if my heart is ill already or not.
So there is a deep worry for me, the 2D echo test is the defining factor for my fitness to go ahead for that surgery that I needed. But of course the doctor might have a different opinion or I might write a waiver to free my doctors and anesthesiologist(s) in any kind of responsibility if something bad happens to me on the operating table which might cost me my life.
But who would want to live like this? Nobody of course so in this case I would just rather die than to continue living on uncertainty, worry, fear, pain and also dragging my family about my demise. Of course I still wanted to live normally free from pain but if I would free fall in a slow downward spiral or heck just straight down with my bone issues I would rather choose to die because I guess that it is what most people would chose.