I actually haven't gone back to my doctor for more than a year now, it is because she is only giving me one medicine that is causing me a severe appetite-loss plus she wanted for me to take it three times per day. Well that is not possible because for one thing it makes me get the nausea and of course the appetite-loss that I am complaining about night and day because it doesn't allow me to enjoy foods if not hooked-up for my dialysis which is the only moment that I can eat at least normally, I can even eat a lot at those instances too.
I can never possibly take my Parathyroid medicine three times per day and even if I am taking it once a day also takes a toll on my appetite. That is how terrible that medicine is for me. Then there is its price which even at once a day does drains my money fast and taking it three times a day is just not going to happen.
I already had spent tons of money for it and the painful fact is that I am still not cured even though my facial bone receded a bit ever since I took that medicine when I am at the peak of my pain issues and a bigger face.
But back then at least I can still walk unlike today where even getting up with my knees seems to be an impossible task already for me, I can only shuffle my way inside the bathroom and there is no actual walk happening. Now it is really hard to make some steps and I fear too that my hip joint would give way and God forbid that from happening because it will be the biggest problem that I will encounter because it will not allow me to walk anymore or maybe even sit around too.
Anyway my Endocrinologist is one of the doctors that doesn't believe that I can manage to survive the operation so I do not like her for believing that and saying that to me too since she doesn't perform surgeries, how can she possibly know what is good for me. She doesn't also know the bad side-effects of my medicine she prescribed and what it is causing me to my everyday life.
The medicine is not curing me, my joints and bones are deteriorating so I needed a surgical intervention otherwise my condition would progress into a much bigger problem. I do not want to live permanently with pain, it has been too long and I needed it to stop once and for all.