I quite do not like the cold months because I tend to get a more breathing distress since in these months I am not much perspiring and I know it would happen as I have experienced it in the past years of my dreadful life. It has been too much of a misery for me and I do have to manage it by really controlling my fluid intake especially now that my nurses just added some dry weight into me.
What is a dry weight? A dry weight is the supposed weight of a person without extra water in their system. Now my nurses adjusted my dry weight up but I feel that my dry weight is actually lower but instead of lowering my dry weight they added water into my system and it just robbed me of fluids that I could consume in-between dialysis and my actual capacity to add more fluid into my system.
That is why I am easily get filled with water in the process which ads to my misery. The effect is that it makes me not want to eat food as it just makes me breathless already. It makes me feel angry and with my longing to feel better is just barred by my nurses and the people who are not wanting to believe in my quest to make my life at ease.
Am I at ease now? I am not so that is why I am infuriated considering the condition that I am experiencing with pain and breathlessness. I do not know what to do anymore and I feel threatened with my life from the same people that should be the ones that supposedly would help me feel better but they are not.
Still I do hope to endure these trying times but I am still worried into what I wanted to happen would not happen because of factors that I could not control. I still needed a lot of prayers and if you do care please pray for me my dear friends because I feel the worries deep from my spine.