I do not know what happened but maybe I ate too much rice yesterday during hooked-up for my dialysis and after going home I just ate some fruit plus that cookie that my sister made, it is just one small piece and really before I ate all that my tummy was starting to ache already.
I just waited for it to go away but it didn't but this happened before right after my dialysis a few times over. What I was just doing is taking a mild pain reliever for it and that is just what I did today this morning after the whole night of it not going away after my mother had asked me if I ever wanted to eat my breakfast but instead I asked for a tablet of paracetamol and that is just what I did.
I took a tablet and tried to sleep which fortunately I had some but intermittently. Right now I haven't eaten anything yet just to make my system rest for a while. I really want to forgo with eating because of course if you eat you will have to go to the toilet and it is hard for me to use the toilet because of my current body pains and condition.
But I do have to eat so that I won't lose anymore body weight which would be bad if it would get replaced with fluids and at that point it might get my lungs into trouble and have get me drown with my own body fluids which is what I do not want to happen and had been trying to avoid it all these years.
It is also hard to endure a tummy ache and this issue is not about the stomach but on the right side of my body. It could be my gall bladder or maybe some stones it it is trying to get out. But again it has happened before and is not persistent. I also must be of an extra fluid in my abdomen that is causing it but right now it has gone away already.
But right now I am not feeling fine with my head because I just wanted to explode, probably because of a low blood sugar in my system and it is just funny that I can still blog while I am thinking to blow up my entire being with an explosive device. I am just keeping myself calm and I do not know how long or my body could endure anymore this kind of beating.