I feel terrible already with my body and I can't wait until I get dialyzed to clean out my blood with toxins and drug residues so that I could feel much better again as well. I am getting this stressful dreams already and waking up with a racing heart. Heck I also dreamed like I climbed this signal tower and I have no way to climb down while I myself is already afraid of heights already.
Thankfully my dialysis is at 4:30 AM so I am just happy with that again although we tend to prepare at a very early hour in the morning as well. My mother just wakes up at 2:00 AM so that by 3:00 AM or 3:30 we are already in the road. Sometimes I would get hooked-up earlier than 4:00 AM if the nurses are also early to arrive in my dialysis center.
Being at dialysis is just easy for me, the only thing that makes it hard is the complications like these joint pains that I am getting and having a treatment with expensive medicines which dries-up my funds fast. Now I do not know where to look for money anymore if my funds would dry up so I am praying to God to not put me in that situation where I would just die a lingering death. Also praying that my crypto as my tool to take myself out from this medical maladies would perform much better earlier so that I could be able to get to my surgery for my parathyroid before things get too late for me.