If I am just able and at least can walk around I could in a more better position without my parents. But since I am too much dependent on my parent's physical and emotional support then their absence in my life would affect me very much.
I just have to be more stronger mentally if any more eventualities that will come in my life that I needed to cope again even though physically it is really impossible now to be all by myself without really anyone helping me out. It still will be hard since being in the care of my siblings also will be way more different because for one thing all of them are busy with their work.
That is why I am trying to do whatever it takes within my power to uplift my life so that I will not be in a position one day that I am just a total drag unto my relatives.
I know of course that my siblings will not just ignore my welfare but for me if I can really not to bother them about my situation I will not let them to even think of me which is why I wanted to get more financially free and able so that I can hire a nanny and such if I wanted to have some help for my physical needs.
I am just for now happy and thankful that I have a loving and supportive parents that cares for me especially my mother that is just giving me that support that no one can equal. Just seeing her around makes me feel nice inside. I know that I should not think about dreaded things like my parents not being around anymore but I must prepare myself from possibilities that could take my life in a difficult phase than what I am experiencing right now and I do not want it to get more terrible for myself and my siblings.