I just taken a portion of my usual does of Gabapentin, approximately 200 mg of the tablet. Then just waiting for a little while I could just feel the relaxing effects of it, it makes me want to sleep but it is different, you are not groggy or high, just calmed and relaxed.
What is so special about Gabapentin is that it really alleviates some of my pain. I guess that my pain issues are coming from the nerves of my back and feet and all that is why the effects of Gabapentin is just targeting those areas of pain hotspots all over my body.
I really, really needed this because it is like somebody in heaven dipping its finger in my mouth while I am roasting in hell of misery and pain. That is why I am like a prisoner on my bed, not bound by chains but overly hampered by my disabled and emaciated body.
But at least I think that I am getting some form of improvements because the misery is unlike before, I am now getting better I think but slowly. I had started my Cinacalcet therapy about more than two and a half years ago and now I am just so careful too about my diet so that I will give no reason for my parathyroid to go loco-loco on my already deformed body structure.
So my body has to improve if not stop the destruction that had happened already and made me a person unlike the photo above. I just missed that boy, sick and yet confident, unwary of what will happen in the next ten years of his life.
If only I can go back and speak to him and warn him about the impending danger to his health considering that he is already sick being a dialysis patient for nine years at that time, he could have done something drastic already to help him out into not to become a person who he is right now.
That was the past and now the order of the day is to control the damage, stop it and reverse it a little because I can never revert back to my former self. All that I can do now is to make my bone begin the process of healing. to stop its leaching out of it calcium to my system so that finally I can live a near normal levels again, quite a fr-fetched idea but everything is possible in the current crazy times of my life.