I had been writing here at steem platform non-stop for more than two years now and it has become my daily work and routine before and after I wake up and all that I would write. One purpose of my blogging was of course the obvious earning some money, the money I am saving is for my medical goals that I wanted to happen and because the value of steem had gone down my efforts had been a slow process but at least I am progressing and makes me get closer to reach some if not all my medical goals which again are not some cheap medical intervention because of post-surgical monitoring and medical therapy with drugs that I do not know of.
Another purpose of my blogging is to keep my mind preoccupied because of what I am feeling with my wasted and emaciated, drug-beaten and trodden ugly body. In fact I would even blog if I am feeling not okay as in nauseated or my heart not beating as it should. It happened a few times already but I still blog about it while I am inside that terrible situation.
It is quite funny how I am doing it but it makes me happy that is why when I am angry, happy, feeling sick, and all kinds of body-related or anything like that I would still write because writing had become my outlet of emotions, it had become a therapy so I would not get crazy because of all these medical maladies that I am enduring for oh so long time already that it is just sometimes ridiculous already.
I do think this is much better than being in other social media where it is for my case impossible to get an audience that will help me out. In steem I have met many friends that truly cares and that is just what I wanted because as they say "Misery Loves Company" and it is just fantastic too that my steem company is empowered with steem so that they can send support lightning-fast which already had saved my life already and continually making my life east from the blows of my ill-fated life.
In other social media I am just apprehensive to even reveal my appearance because of the threat of people rubber-necking, pointing, staring, laughing, taking pity, or gossiping because of my appearance. In fact many of my friends already had shyied-away from me maybe they are also threatened that I will ask for help and all that. I ever asked for help even from this community, I am just writing along and telling my life experiences mainly and what I am thinking at the moment because it soothes my both financially and mentally.
So I am just happy making some progress with my blogging because of the said reasons and I do hope that soon many people would help me out because it is not good to live in constant worry about your future if you foresee it to be worse that you ever would think. So I just wanted to graduate and get a diploma about these Pain school where I learned my lesson already many times already but the school principal just wanted to keep me in like a rat in a cage.
