The digital photo above was what I was doing a few months ago when I got inspired by the Late Bob Ross which I think I saw all his episodes in his television series. I am quite surprised on how he had done trees and bushes and all those happy little things he puts on the canvass. So I tried to recreate the ideas that I have learned from which I I failed to do but somehow managed to do some good and pleasing to the eye "non-masterpiece" digital art which really if I would have the time to frame it I will.
Then I just grew bored with it and stopped just like that as I couldn't get the inspiration anymore to do some because for one thing these things are hard to make and then the digital painting is different than the normal paintings with all those brushes and paint knives and thinners and all that which also I think I can never do because it requires some energy to brush on paints to canvass.
I will just physically stress-out myself along with pain before I could even begin to do the first happy little cloud. So I reckon that my attempt to do even a regular real painting with oil paint, etc.will just be futile and can never get a reality which really is another frustration because of my current physical condition.
Well it really is hard and it suck to be in this kind of medical condition where if I am not a Christian would have taken my own life already. Anyway my days are just spent online all the time as I can't even go to the living room area to join my folks in watching television plus I have a peeve also about my father changing the channel when we are watching news and he dislikes the particular news he would change it. So I just would go back to my room with the assistance of my mother (she drags my camping chair) and go back online again.
Besides going to the dialysis center my life now revolves around basically watching videos and listening to music and making blogs which I regard as my therapy so that I could get distracted from these things that ails me.
I just hope that tomorrow would be a hot afternoon like this again because I plan to use again my sweat suit because without it I can never perspire profusely and I needed to do that in order for me to achieve my dry weight because if I would arrive to my dialysis heavy, then there will be no room for additional fluid that can be taken out. Anyway using the sweat suit is quite more effective in hotter days like this plus my sweat glands doesn't budge if it is not really humid unlike this kind of a little dry weather comparatively.