I do not know but maybe I am just crazy to even put in my mind the desire to keep on with my medical goals one of which is a Kidney transplant, face and inside of my mouth reconstruction surgery, or even straightening back of my backbone and that is just on the medical side alone not to mention the crazy plan to build myself a house if not to just renovate this home where me and my parents lives because all of them needs a serious amounts of money where no one would ever believe that I have the possibility to even attain or accomplish one of them.
But I am unlike other people because I just do not like not giving things a chance before even giving-up. Some people that I know that are even close to me would just let go before even hanging-on or raising a finger to fight that is why I do not look-up to those people but for me if there is still life then there is still hope.
In my situation I do not choose to give-up for the reason that my capitulation will give me a hardship prior, so I am picking the better option for myself to not even a step back because I have gone this far as well and so with that I am striving to make my life as the best thing that I can do for it and that is to never lose hope because there is a prize in the end either triumph to get one of my goals or to just burn fast (die) both of which is actually a benefit because if I would die then it will be a sweet rest that I deserve and if I would achieve what I am desiring to happen then that will be an accomplishment of all time short of a miracle.
I had some miraculous experiences already in this lifetime of mine, one was this instance that I am currently enjoying which is my good blood count. Usually a dialysis patient needs blood transfusions regularly or EPO injections because we lose blood without the body being able to replace it but in my case I am no longer having problems with it because by blood count never gets lower now and it cured most of my other conditions like insomnia, etc.
Steem is also a miracle in my life because I really have no one to turn to with all these great financial burden in my shoulder until I came across a community like no other that had been in my side for three years now in my fight to survive my hordes of medical complications that is only hard to manage physically, psychologically, especially financially.
My last medical needs where my Appendix had to be removed had not been possible if I have no funds that I had saved from earning steem and SBD and those funds came from the friends that I have here even though I do not know most of them and yet had helped me survive in so many ways Glory be to God because of his unspeakable gifts.
I am aiming high because I am really far behind this life and my ambitions are not for a luxury nor it will hurt me in any way because as far as I know they are still a noble cause because saving one's life is noble for me which is worthy of a prize, even maybe just a consolation prize.