There are many people and not a few in fact are not realizing that there are cases worse than them. People battling a situation in dear life that they can't even imagine and understand the least maybe.These things that in my case that also surprised me myself because of its sheer gravity, one problem after another and unrelenting as if I am a force that needs to suppressed from the world and not be given a chance to stand up and just be normal like anyone around me.
Many would complain about love and relationship, money, home, job, and even about a more trivial things like not being able to get another boyfriend or girlfriend or wife or husband, their steemit earnings got diminished by $1,000 dollars from the $4,000 that they usually earn for a particular period because Bitcoin tanked, or that they missed a rent, or to a food that somewhat that didn't taste so right enough.
I mean, I can't even think of a situation worse than I am. All others are just a chicken feed of a problem and sometimes they are not even a problem at all and just a mere situation that has a patch that can solve it like easy. I would like my friends that didn't know yet, I am a dialysis patient for 15 years now and I have a Leontiasis and Kyphosis, both are bone complications from being a dialysis patient for a long time.
As of now I am having a hard time eating and drinking because of my deformity inside my mouth in which the bone below the gums grow as well as the bone above the palate. It is like having a mouth guard everyday and i need to eat and drink with it lying down. I also have a trouble walking because of my Kyphosis, the deformity of the spinal bone. It compressed my lungs and I am breathless with even a small effort like brushing my teeth. After brushing my teeth I have to bow down just to catch my breath. Just imagine when I am taking a bath.
Other than those activities and eating, I can no longer do anything else except type on this tablet with a bluetooth keyboard hanging on a used LED monitor on my bed beside me because it is just painful to sit and type. I can no longer attend special family gatherings because of my appearance and condition. I also enjoy going to the market but I can no longer do that. It was also my passion to cook but now good luck to me in peeling the carrot.
My condition also worsen every day now as I am feeling the pressure on my cheeks as the skin is stretched so I just can't say that I am not worried. I am deeply worried because of the extra burden. Will the pain progress? I don't know, but what if? What do I do? Now why I am saying all these? It's just some people don't know that there are people that are far more have an insurmountable obstacles in their life which gets ugly where the end is predictable, an undignified defeat.
Undignified yes, this situation robs me of my dignity. Most people treat me differently and you can just guess how is it. Maybe people are just so visual and prejudice as I have experienced myself sometimes painfully from sometimes from the people that I also am counting into and trusted and I mind it a great deal because it just means my disappointment to them but I can't control anyone's character, it is just bad to experience it all that also gives me an emotional pain.
