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I have a pain in a place that is rather concerning and fairly unpleasant and I am long overdue to be checked. I have had this pain for several years, worrying about what it could be I just was unable to bring myself in to find out the answer. So far it sounds like my biggest concerns have been proven wrong and most likely I have a structural issue rather than something more serious like cancer.
There is a part of me that feels as if I have lost my manhood just having to go through all the testing so far yet I realize it is more manly to be able to face this concern head on. I don't want to be that old guy waking up one day with a thousand health problems pissed off with myself that I did not take the steps needed to ensure my health and well being when I had the chance.
I am not going to die tomorrow but I am losing weight and because of the pain I have there was the assumption it was linked and hinted towards something much more serious. In the back of my mind I think "Well it hasn't killed me yet" but the front of my mind thinks "it could and what does that mean?" I believe everyone faces that battle, admit something is wrong or tough it out but why do we torture ourselves with not knowing?
I would rather know, even if the answer from the doctor is not good I would rather know! That little bit of piece of mind knowing why I am losing weight, what it means for my future, and what steps I will need to take to ensure I live as long I possibly can.
That's a bit of a scary thought, live as long I possibly can, brings me to the thought of what I would be leaving behind. Ultimately when faced with this situation everyone's first thought is not of themselves or at least it should not be but rather what it means for other people in your life. So take that thought and apply it and don't hesitate or procrastinate, it may be your wellbeing on the line but it is going to affect everyone in your life moving into the future.
I have procrastinated for far to long and I could have saved myself a few years of discomfort had I addressed these issues a lot sooner! Maybe this past week I would have not feared the answers I would be given from the doctor, the whole time I have been expecting them to tell me I have cancer. I don't thank god. Now they are running through the dietary testing but the question remains, is it just stress related?
Stress can do alot to people, it can change who you are mentally and physically. If you feel like you have adrenaline going 24 hrs a day your body must be burning that much more energy to keep that adrenaline flowing.
I have started all my testing, I have more tests to go, I am proud of myself for doing it and I thank the doctors for putting up with me.
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