just curious? how old are you? my dear, I do fully understand your point here. to be honest, I do have the same experience based on the content that you have here so it was easy for me to internalized and rekindle those deep thoughts and naive feeling. That was probably me during my early 20's to mid something. Well, I have not consulted a professional to verify that I might have some sort of mental disruptions...much more of a disorder or illness. It seemed that it is just plainly hard to reach others and you just wanna sulk into your world right. Indeed, we got different approach of coping up. In my opinion, it's more of self awareness and self evaluation to overcome such. Bottom line, I applaud your stand on this. Brave girl.