There is scarcely any passion without struggle.
― Albert Camus
Feliz (my cat) is a man after my own heart. When I got him from the shelter, it was quite hard to win his trust. He was awkward and fearful. That time, I could have just bought a posh cat like a Chinchilla White Persian but I am just not attracted to this type. I am not saying that this beautiful cat is too superficial for me but a creature with a past seems more interesting. I don't want an indoor cat that will just sleep and get obese due to fancy cat foods. I want a feral cat who does not need me. A passionate wildcat.
Even though I feed Feliz with cat food, he still likes to incessantly hunt and kill. That is his passion. When my cat is happily back from hunting, he will not only reward me with mouse spleens and bird feathers, he will also shower me with love and attention. It is not safe to leave my cat out there to go hunting in the wild, but I trust him enough that he will come back. If he doesn't, I will understand. I will only cherish the good times we have together.
Feliz is a cat with a troubled past but the most important thing is that now he is happy. He is a survivor. The most diabolic cat who could adapt to any type of environment anywhere you put him in this world - with or without comfort. I was playfully annoying him one time but he almost buried his fangs deep into my skin. Just because he is nice does not mean he will let his master walk all over him. The alpha male knows what he wants. He is strong and secured. He is not sitting pretty demanding respect. And for that I respect him. He is the most passionate and beautiful cat in the neighborhood.
There's a lesson to be learned from Feliz, the importance of having something to live for and not base your happiness solely on humans.
My cat is risking his life out there, willing to die while doing what he loves. God knows what the wild cats are doing - hunting bugs, mating or scavenging for some food scraps. I also noticed that other people find Feliz cute. Sometimes I get worried that he will be taken away from me but I try to convince myself that I love him for his freedom. And for that, he loves me back. Our relationship is based on freedom.
I think this is what most women, and some men too, around here lack. I observe that the reason they can be quite jealous, insecure, and demanding is due to their lack of passion. They expect more time to be spent with them. People love to spend more time with passionate people. Passion is what makes a person attractive. But at what point this passion will be discovered?
Some years ago, before I decided to travel, I was experiencing this really sad and messy breakup. When you hit rock bottom, the only way to survive is to go up. That time, my friend came over to my place and told me something that I would never forget - You know why are you suffering right now? It's because you don't have any hobbies. Activities that have nothing to do with a man.
I mean my work was not a hobby and sure my friend was right. That was the point when I started doing things that I really love. Things that I can do with or without people. I felt omnipotent. It's like realizing that someone leaving or you're leaving behind would no longer be a life threat because you have other things that will keep you sane. You will survive and be just as happy as my cat.
The alpha males are out there hunting and spending time with other males. They like to do other things like building something, doing sports, playing music, hanging out in the garage, or fixing broken stuff. The alpha male likes to be free to do their own thing so they could come back ready to give love and attention. Being in control of their own lives is what makes them powerful. While women, though not all, tend to be emotional because they demand and expect things that they lack. Passion and independence can make a person (man or woman) more beautiful. Freedom does not mean that you look for more partners or that you break up with your significant other. It only means being free to pursue your passion whatever it takes. There should be something else that keeps you alive. A strong purpose. A person in your life is just there to make you happier not complete you.
Passion does not come without struggle. Art, music, architecture, and all the great things have been created if it weren't for loneliness, anger, love, hate and other painful feelings. Nikola Tesla even quoted that not many great inventions have been made by married men. Having something to devote your life for would be worth it in the end. Just treat it as a bonus if there's someone who could celebrate and share the joy with you. Perhaps a passionate wildcat too.
