I tend to avoid the best I can with interacting with the public. I get rather a strong feeling in regards to others peoples “energy.” Whether it be an emotional state or something I just can’t describe but I do understand that feeling you are having with people in your art gallery. I have noticed for many years now and I have no clue how many that something is “off.”

A few years back when I had to take notes on a public speech for a class I attended a church service since we only had a week total for the assignment and my local government officials postponed a meeting I was hoping to attend.

In there I got a chance before the service started to talk with one of its members and make sure it was ok with them with what I needed to do with my assignment. I shacked the guy's hand and my knees nearly gave out. I have not been a spiritual believer in quite a many years but that man had a very powerful positive energy about him.

I sometimes also get very sickening feels around people as well. Had a clearly homeless drug addict once knock on the door begging for “food” money. Not only did I not believe him I refused to answer the door the next time he was around months later. He even went around looking into the windows for a while before leaving. I made it clear with a tv and lights that someone must be in the house and didn’t answer the door. This is just an extreme case, the same thing happens once very rare occasions when I’m at a store and I just have to get as far away from whatever I’m feeling in a row over.

The world has felt off tilt for a number of years. People seem no longer able to stand straight anymore. You get up and you just fall back over, you take a step and you trip. Everything going great for you then you get very terrible news about something near you.

It’s almost like you recover from something then, just as you almost get back to that same point beforehand something else happens. Like on days of the feeling of “normalize” and something bad happens out there in the world hours later.

All in all we just have to focus on the positive things and move forward in life the best we can. We can’t let instances like these make us afraid or control our daily lives. That gives the wrong kind of people power in this world. The kind that makes them goes out and keep doing such evil things over and over. It is always disheartening when copycats start showing up because of how much media coverage events like this gets.

As far as this sad event. I actually wanted and tried to go to bed early that night. I just could not no matter how much I tried and how much my body needed that extra a sleep. After a few hours, I gave up and turned the computer back on to try and get some work done. After a while, I found out about it and was unable to get anything further done or even sleep. I had a very sick feeling far worse than most times when I find out the first details on a still active event.

While I do love logic and I wish more of it was in my everyday life. There just is not any when it comes to things like these or that “off” feeling we have prior to something sad. I also think for most part if it was not for that event to trigger us into remembering an "off" feeling stronger then what it was and into the days to come after that. It just seems to be our human nature to become very tunnel vision when it comes to a single feelings over others even if it was the weaker one as we try and sort out the worlds madness.