At first I was laughing at it, eventually it was a huge lesson for me
2 hours later... I'm sitting in dark corner of my room, smoking a blunt
Thinking to myself: How I got here
I'm getting up early, what am I doing awake?
But no, there I was.
Raping that left mouse click, confirming transactions through Steemconnect like a motherfucker...
2600 liquid STEEM I had, great sum for me considering how much it took to earn 2000 STEEM organically
Fuck me, even know with a decent income it takes at least 2-3 months.
There I was... obsessed with Magic Dice
Pumping that button... falling from 2600 to 300 STEEM
To get up to 2650 once again with 300... but it wasn't enough, somehow I felt I needed more
I didn't learn the easy way :D
So I continued to be a greedy motherfucker and there I was.... sitting in the dark corner of my room
Taking hits from the bong, every hit made me felt this deeper and I the feelings of sadness got in...
It was lot of STEEM for me, at that time, around 2 monthly salaries where I live at
Right now, its even more... so there I was, in the dark corner of my room
I told myself: Motherfucker you gonna work now.
There is no fucking around.
So there I was, 3 AM high as fuck in my room, decided I'm gonna find a job!
Next morning, after getting some sleep... I found myself a first job :)
I started working instantly... I was pushed in the fire, to say the least
Nevertheless it was a great experience to remind me to appreciate my assets, time & energy more...
As well, it was a great reminder how to be humbler and how to stay humble every day.
Here I am right now... 6 months later, I already worked 5 different jobs - still didn't finish
Still earning that cash, my life completely changed :)
I'm much more inform... my body much cleaner, much more precisely defined visions
Soon will be travelling abroad... all kind of thankfully to Magic Dice
Their shitty platform and that motherfucker 
Right now I have more STEEM than I would have even if I didn't lose that 2600.
And I'll get much more of it... thankfully to that super-painful motivation by that loss in the dark corner of my room
So thank you pain, thank you Universe!!! I guess :)
The message of this blog is:
Never ever let your fire die out. Yeah, shit happens... sometimes it feels like its unbearable
But its not... its gonna be better, and if you decide to believe in Divine and understand How everything happens for a reason - you gonna have much easier time on this journey called life. Believe me.
So that's what I do, whenever some kind of shit happens - no matter how hard it is, I try to remind myself it happened because of a bigger picture I can't perceive at this very moment...
And every single time, eventually, I find out how I was right :)
Have a beautiful day and enjoy your life!
