Thanks for this snack of thought:)

It depends how to translate the "control" term. One controls a machine but not the mind. A machine just follows my commands and does not build up willful resistance to them.

It's more like riding a horse and not being able to direct the horse. If I have a tight mind (and body) the horse will fight me and if I am careless, it will do what it wants, either.

I must let the horse do what it can best, leave it free and release tension and, at the same time, give myself totally to the horse, its strength and power in sync with my own power to create a space of orientation without ill determination.

I guess our will can be compared with this... it's not about "controlling" but "letting directing take place" from the participants to their best abilities.

Or another analogy. Being a director at a movie set. If the director is too rigid he will produce tension in the actors. If he lets the scenes happen without passion, the play also becomes weak. But if he engages with a high spirit and wants the actors to show their very best abilities it will become a much better scene.

Can I name myself as a victim of my own mind? ... It often happens that I am and that I blame others to have control over "me" while I fell for this construction of my own mind.