I had three goals for today:
- Wake up and get out of bed before noon
- Put on makeup and a proper outfit, as in not sweatpants/robe/birthday suit
- Leave the house
I know, all of that sounds like almost impossible to complete but I do set the bar quite high for myself. I'm happy to report that it's almost 2pm and I have all my goals completed, whoosh, I'm so proud of myself!
I've been feeling like shit about my appearance for weeks and it doesn't help if I have my hair in a messy bun, wear ugly clothing and can't be bothered to put on makeup. So as I set my goals for myself yesterday, I did it solely to cheer myself up. I was gonna go for something natural but then I remembered that red lipstick always makes me feel fabulous and I don't wear it as often as I should. I used to wear bright lipstick several times in a week but then I became lazy.
Somehow I woke up around 7am this morning, chatted with an old friend, lounged around in bed for a couple hours, and then finally pulled myself together. Put on makeup, took these pictures, switched to jeans and a t-shirt outfit (like always), and headed out with my laptop.
I feel like such a basic little millennial as I'm sitting in a cafe, writing, answering to comments and editing my self-portraits. I'm little out of my comfort zone but trying to up my I don't give a fuck -game and not care that someone might be lurking over my shoulder, seeing me brush away the plague on my face. I'm not even sitting with my back against the wall, which I always try to do, so that nobody can sneak up behind me.
I'm actually kinda liking this thing. I have my headphones on, I'm in my own little bubble and because very few people interest me, I feel like there isn't any distractions in here. I have gotten a lot done because I'm working against my laptop running out of battery and I'm trying to get most of my editing work done for today in here. I have no idea what I'm gonna do for the rest of the day but I'm sure I'll figure a way to waste my precious time on something useless like Netflix and eating snacks.
I think I might get used to this.
ps. I've been drinking the same huge latte for over two hours, I think it's time to leave and go hunt for some food.