Kinda moody today so i decided to do a little rant.
In the past few days i have actually learnt a lot of things from a lot of happenings. I have been heart broken by people who i call friends. People who i have helped when they were down. People who i have traded my happiness for theirs. People who i have gone out of my comfort zones for.
Most of these people have made me realise that loving someone is not a guarantee that you will be loved in return. I am someone that is very emotional and little things get to me so i feel kind of bothered when i see these stuffs. I be like wtf. I don't just understand. Why should you bite the finger that fed you or why should you trade evil for good. Thats just so freaking unfair.
This post was not made to seek sympathy or make people pity and love me or something. I am making this post to remind myself not to put my hopes on anybody. Like a partner of yours just waking up one day and calling off the relationship. Like tf. Relationships are not meant to be a bed of roses. Shit happens and you should settle. Especially when you think the person cares. Well that is not related to this post, twas just an example.
Anything i do for someone is done at my own risk and it is not certain that it will be reciprocated. Ill continue to love and care for family and friends but will just have to do it without harming myself or depriving me of my happiness.
As for me nobody knows how to love you. Only you can love you. And if you dont love yourself, nobody else will love you for you.