Sick of trying to do right, only to get it wrong
What type of person are you?
Are you the type that goes to work and nods their head with a smile and agrees that whatever the boss says and does must be the right thing as they are the boss, or are you the type that will go above and beyond to ensure you are the one that the boss looks to for whatever they need. Maybe you have a passion for the job and want the process to succeed, or maybe you just want to better yourself and give your career the boost it needs to earn that little bit more money.
Well no thankyou
All I see when I go to work is tick boxes that seem to multiply week by week. What I mean by this is as long as by the end of your long tiring shift you have not broken any of 165 pages of the Health and Safety at work act 1974, Ensured Quality legislation has been met and that you did all this by following standard operating procedure's then you will live to do it all over again the next day.
But if one of the boxes is not ticked, then suddenly your pulled into an office with three other people and have 1 chance to explain your action's before your whole source of financial stability is just pulled from under your feet.
This is not what I signed up for when I sat in that interview telling whoever that I was an excellent team player and very ambitious with a desire to succeed. Standard operating procedure's sounds like something you programme into CPU of a robot.
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But its not only during work but in everday life too
So you come home from work and you find yourself still trying to please everyone else. Must put the bin's out tonight, your turn to cook, please could you put a load in the washer and don't forget the kid's HAVE TO BE at school by 8:45 am or they will be late for their 9 am start. Not forgetting the mother-in-law needs her grass cutting and we must start saving in June for one day in December.
OMG!
Life Can not be this tedious. At what point does one sit back and say NO, " I WILL NOT LIVE THIS WAY".
Is this what constitutes a midlife crisis, at the age of 34 I think not. But who knows when a midlife really is. I mean who's to say my peak years have been and gone. While I am sat ticking all the right boxes, what am I missing?
Suddenly the thought of living off the radar in a remote part of the world with only the sound's of nature as your neighbours and the woodland floor as your grocery store.
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I suppose what it is I'm having a breakdown over is that I hate the idea that we are born to follow the rules made by the previous generation and create our own destiny. A lot of people will say some bullshit like "you are I charge of your own destiny". well if I am then why am I going to work to provide food for my family because my destiny would be that my family always have food and we don't rely on the one thing I feel drives people's life more than anything.
MONEY
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Well, I have had it bloody rules and people telling me how I should walk, talk, act, sleep, eat, drink, spend, write, read and screw.
I dont drive, that is my choice, but people tell me that at my age I should be driving.
why?
It's my life and I will drive if I want to.
Well, thank you if you made it this far through my personal break down. i nearly never made it this far myself but hey here we are at.....
The End
p.s it's your choice