Well! Maybe i should say I was once in your shoe for a long time but one day i sat down and think about what i have done and what am I doing, because no matter how I tried, it seems I am not doing it right. I will be well committed, loyal, good person to my best interest, good communication and at the end all blame will be on me. Then, i decided to work away as you did and focus on myself, walk away for years and I am enjoying it being myself once again.