Time check, it's 9:00 pm. I pinched the tip of my nose, can't believe I stayed late again. So without any hesitation, I grabbed my bag and went straight out to my office. While I was in the elevator, I thought of out of something.What if I will just quit my job?What if I will just find another job.A job where I can have plenty of leisure time.A job where i don't need to stay all night just to chase the deadlines of those documents.Because my mind was space outing again, i didn't notice that I was already in the parking lot. So I got in my car and drove home.
Two hours ride before I arrived at my first destination is quite tiring.I felt hungry so I stopped at a convenience store and bought some snacks. While roaming around the store, I noticed an old man drinking alone in a corner, not below 50 years old. He was kinda drunk but you can say that he is still in his senses. When I finally got the things that I needed, I immediately went to the counter and paid the bills. I looked around the area to look for space, but sadly, the only space available is on the table of the drunk man. So i headed to his way and asked if i could share his table, and he nodded.
While eating, I suddenly remembered my past. The time when I quitted to my first job because I wasn't able to handle the pressure.I felt like my body is going to crash down any moment if I stayed on that job longer. That time, I could say that my office almost turned out to be my house because of always staying there all night. And so I decided to quit, even though the salary is good, still, I don't think if I could still survive in that kind of work.
Minutes after, I was finished eating my snack. I was about to leave when the drunk man spoke,"is something bothering you dearly, you can tell me", and then he smiled.I was hesitating if I will tell him or not, but in the end, I ended up telling him everything. I was surprised when he smiled but what surprised me the most was when he smiled for the second time and what made me shocked even more was when he said something that made me changed my mind.
"Don't let your weakness drag you down. It's normal that we people felt tiredness. We're not god, our strength has limitations. I can say your problem is not as big as mine. I have two children, both girls, they're twins actually. They are the most precious gift that I received from God. That's why, when I knew that one of them has a heart disease, I couldn't accept it.I mean, they're too young and fragile to suffer this kind of illness. And now I'm having a hard time with the company, my company is in deep debt, anytime it will be bankrupt. Being a single parent is not easy, really. My wife died after giving birth to the twins. IF only I could turn night into the day just to work, I could've done it a long time ago already. That's why dear, don't make tiredness a big deal, god is just testing your patience, it's not yet a problem, he said sadly while tears are running down his face.
After hearing his story, I felt like my heart crashed into pieces. I couldn't even utter a word. Why didn't I noticed it so soon? If it wasn't for that drunk man maybe until now I couldn't still decide what I should do. But I'm thankful that I met a person like him. I guess we could really express our true feelings when we're drunk. I fell pity for him, knowing that his daughter's life is at stake.Now I really know that what I thought a problem, is just a simple test. So silly of me, I was so weak.
And so, starting that day, I said to myself that I should change my lifestyle. If I hate staying late at my office, then it'll be the first thing that should try to adjust. Well, it's not actually bad, staying late in an office really shows that I could work and be a better person with responsibilities.
