My life mantra: It's only a bad day, not a bad life.

There are millions of quotes, but only a few give us ques how to make our lives better and meaningful.

Like you I have read a lot of motivational words from different papers. I listened to great words from great people.

I might not look deep as you look at me. I might laugh hard but deep inside I am howling in pain.

It might take so long if I share you about my life.

For weeks I've been in my fulltime job and missed a lot of contests. One of these contest was run by Hive account@mermaidvampire, it's about making a post about one-liner life mantra. I still wanna make a post about my mantra in life since she believes that "it's never too late for everything".

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It's only a BAD DAY not a BAD LIFE.

I am at the lowest point in my life these days what keeps me going aside from my family and friends is my mantra in life.

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I got this motto on my graduation day. I feel uneasy that day, not because I feel nervous on my march on stage, it's my fear that I might not get a job and a life with financial freedom. Looking around me I can see my classmates and start comparing myself. After the ceremony, they will become my competitors at job fairs. I wanna cry recalling my grades and the things that I did on the past four years. I have some dropped and failed subjects, and plenty of low grades. That time I feel so small. Graduating from a small private college and looking at my dad pushing himself into a very crowded bleacher with other parents and guardians just to see me march on stage. That moment I felt like I failed him. My mom didn't come on the call time of the ceremony cause she is not happy on the degree that I choose plus my grades are not good. I wanna go back and to those times when I was still in my first semester in my freshmen years and make things right at the first time.

That moment all I can feel is negativity until our cum laude made her speech. She said she is not smart but she tried her best and make her own destiny. Like us, she has her down days but all she thinks is all problems will pass, and It's not a bad life it's just a bad day. Coming from her, it is possible to make changes.

In few days I tried to apply at job fairs. It was hard I barely don't have money to have a decent lunch while applying for jobs. I can feel my mom is not supportive, I can't blame her. There are days that I just have enough money for my fare. I just keep telling myself that this day will end and tomorrow will be a better one.

I worked hard for my first year in my career I worked as an outsourced customer representative at night to dawn just to finance my technical course in beauty care and hairdressing, one of the things that I am proud of. Go to classes on daytime, I am glad my instructor is considerate as well as my boss. Sometimes I clean someone's feet for extra cash and to buy more materials for school.

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There are days that I just eat twice a day since I decided to rent a place nearer to my workplace. I wanna prove to myself that my past won't define my future.

I admit there are days that it is really hard to get up from my bed and so hard to sleep cause of the anxieties that I fear for tomorrow.

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I am glad I finished my short-term courses because of my sacrifices. After that, I got another job and most of my new coworker won't believe in my capabilities. As a degree holder, I remove weeds in the vegetable garden, plant seedlings buy stuff for my workplace and there are days that those items are heavier than me. Sometimes I spend from my own pocket. Salary is around one to a two months delay. I just keep telling myself I am just tired and should not think negative it is just an ordinary bad day it will pass by.

I decided to get some units in education and someone told me that I won't make it, but I still pursue. I can't even buy decent shoes at work most of the time I wear slippers since I have more dirty jobs all the time plus my tuition fees cost around half of my salary. I sometimes ask food or borrow money from my classmates just to survive 12 hours classes on Sundays.

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What hurts most is I start losing people that I called friends cause they think I live a low life. I just told myself that I have a decent work and this is the life you can't choose a job or pick the things that are convenient for you. There are bad and sad days all you need to do is go with the flow and survive.

I stick with my mantra and now I am proud to be a licensed professional teacher and currently teaching business and accountancy which is my bachelor's degree, people won't believe I made it sometimes I think I am just dreaming. Who would have thought someone like me who don't excel in the past will become someone better. I still encounter bad days but my life experiences taught me how to deal with them.
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