When you feel yourself breaking out of your conditioning, the world shifts. Don't believe anything anyone tells you. You were meant to create life on your own terms. You are smarter wise and greater than you or anyone else has ever given you credit for. So leap, touch the sky, and just design life the way you want it to be. Just because everyone around you does things one way doesn't make it the only way, or another way wrong. Trust yourself, you are ancient, you've been doing this thing a while. There is a reason you come into this world expecting your needs to be met, expecting to be loved and enjoyed (in joy). Because you've done this already, and you know to expect good things.
I love you and there is a reason you don't fit.
All good things,
goddessj