You don't need strength man. I can feel it you are the strongest. Just take from your inner strength!

This really moved me. I lost my mum when I can't really relate with loosing someone so dear. Many times I feel as things would be so different if she hadn't gone so early.

But I relate with your experience more with my dad's sickness and death, the worst part is not the death but this

had noticed though within our video-calls that she had aged so quickly. In the months leading up to these trauma-times, she had aged so fast but she didn't have any hints that it had to do with illness or perhaps, she did but she hid her feelings from us out of love.

Watching someone u love fade away before your eyes is the worst.
I wish I could show him more love and affection during his last days.

This taught me to cherish my loved ones every moments so as not to regret the moments unspent, love shared, words unspoken.

I feel you and feel with you brother.