Damn! Man!! I gotta be clean cut with the revolutionary shit I think I have on my mind! LOL Life is great! I feel like a new person everyday!? ... hey! I'm ready for it. Enjoyed my day listening to the new Ministry Album AmeriKKKant! Inspiring enough for me to forget my woes so to speak and get political. As in go through thoroughly my own personal trip so that I may grant myself a proper public personage so I can make some better money and put out my schtick. I will probably have to start out with my personal life story which I wanted to tell even back when I was a kid. Wow, what a good trip!
The ultimate realization is to not make an ass out of myself in public and respect the public as a sacred space. The only way to do that is to be open and say exactly what is on my mind. The only way to get away with saying something is by coming out and saying it! Now I'm not hyping, just going the trip. Where I feel the social side gets sick then infects the primal side. Bar all and any haze ritual.
So ended being a pretty alright night. Went to visit my musician pals in on of the small towns. They weren't around so I went to the next town closer to mine to be social. That's what gets me in a bad trip when I'm to isolated. I gotta take it way easy with that. I can't be doing what everyone else is doing. It ain't hard. Talked with someone I know who plays in a local band where I appreciate their music. The band is not currently active, felt good acknowledging the band and the singer also cooks the food at the place. I do have an affinity for cooks. I worked as a cook at a local diner. I knew most of the early cooks at this local music pub I go to as well. Stories behind that too, no time or will for that right now though.
Earlier in the night I socialized with a younger guy I kinda know and the circle of people he was with. Was good after I travelled to a further town to try to see someone with no luck. My musician friend was 'jamming' with his band...didn't want to interrupt, shy with those things. Also don't like bands or others jamming anyway. No comment...best to see them in another time/place.
Just glad the day and night went alright and I'm ending the the wake state in a good mind-space. I don't want to get too heavy yet be as straight forward as possible. That's what the band Ministry taught me on my trip. Have some comedic elements in there too. Make sure there is a laugh in there. If it's not fun it's not working. Really the Shaman trip is the Cosmic Joke. A joke so horrifying you can only bear to hear it once! I'll leave it at that.