For the first time is seems as though it may be stabilising! Get your stabilisers out!! My life has been down to the wire since day one. That may be able to change, I feel a shift lately. I found a bunch of older pics to alter and present. I know an overwhelmed feeling and not to be freaking in it. And not to go down the socio path cause you would lose who you are. I'm not down for losing my core!!
Alone, thrown out into the world. I banded together with my small family. We lived hand to mouth most our lives but now something seems different. We are starting to have steady work! I'm finally getting into creativity and writing and steemit has helped allot with that. I'm saving here. Steemit is my allowence!
When you work for years and years under the grind it can feel like you lose track of time. Went for a walk today and it felt like being let out of the cage! I would look up and say - I can see the sun!! Always read books and had intense conversations with those around! Kept my brain alive while all else I could do was survive.
I did have a troubled childhood. I have felt overwhelmed and it never stopped. I learned to stabilise and stay calm within it. I am ready for the change. I am ready for certain burdens to be lifted and I will be in a more refreshed state of mind. It's a happening already and always did. Slow pacing while facing in the right direction.
Lived in these areas, these towns, didn't flounder. I would keep the spirit up! Do the chores to make the space we had liveable. I've been building philosophy up, have good cheer in there as well. Looking at some old pics of the place I've been in the last years I can see we really spruced it up in the yard with the garden. The plants and trees helped keep me sane and intact as well.
House with no rooms, hanging out in the shack, living day to day, not really living yet living up to the right track. Now it seems we won't have to be living like that any more.
