I'm feeling better!! Tripping well!!! The condition on my hands has major improved! Just trying to get through the end of winter and the Ides Of March! LOL I'm actually enjoying it. Mmm! Taking in the winter! Reflecting on this last great cold season and my growth through life! Damn, I gotta say I feel pretty excited! Going to a concert on April 1st. Ideas are coming to me. I'm feeling more relaxed. Checking myself - all systems go!
Remembering past inspirations with my band idea Massesect and how I just gotta resurrect that 20 years later! Visited a friend today with a health boutique and she has to close shop. I told her don't give up on your dreams. She at least got experience. We are healers here too! We practice tai chi around here (me not so much at the moment) create ideas, create art. A more supportive community would allow healers to practice for free and not have to pay rent, be taken care of by the community, for they provide a community service. That's what I need. In order to proceed with the dream I need to make an arrangement where I would not have to work for awhile and practice what ever art that interests me. It is hard in the current economic consumer paradigm. Yet it's still a goal to free up the life more and more.
I feel fresh and new somehow. I have the urge to explore. Read books, learn more about music, get social and have interesting conversations. I think the Spring Fever is hitting me early this year hee hee. Just saying my interests seem perked right now! I like that. I don't want to feel so bogged anymore. Where the situation is so brutal and tight where you almost feel stuck unable to make a move...yet you do move and keep the dream...slowly. Even if it is partly a state of mind it takes time. Can't just snap out of old habits. It takes time re-learning and sometimes transference of old addictions/thoughtpatterns/fetishes etc. onto a healthier more uplifting activity. Yet it's worth it not to be tweaked from society yet it's good to freak out and express yourself. Takes time to master the art of freaking out. Worth it to learn new skills and expand one's repertoire.
So damn man! Got to cozy into life! Get political! Get ferocious! Get cute. Take it easy. Get pissed! Embrace the whole range of emotions and their validity. Ok wow I'm excited for tomorrow! Will help at home, help the fam, maybe work, do some creative activity. Keep thinking and documenting my life. Stay cheery in a grumpy world. It may seem hard but...just can't let the bastards get you down. Especially when you know it's bogus bullshit. Hmm, I'm thinking I wrote some poetry the other day. Could post that up tomorrow. Well, goodnight!
