I flash back 20 years later! I see them as spokespersons of the generation. Junior High was a tough time. I had allot of anxiety at the time and I had attacks. I got bullied allot for it. I was poor and was still dealing with issues surrounding growing up with a schizophrenic parent earlier in life. I got bullied by kids that didn't even go to the school and got some things stolen from time to time. I was bullied allot within school too and the teachers didn't do much to stop it.
I knew a bit about the band Nirvana and could relate to the angst of the music. When he died while I was in grade 7 it had an impact. He was definitely an important cultural figure of the times. I became a huge fan of Nirvana. I know him as the spokesperson of the generation in ways. I also know that 2pac and his impact on music makes him a spokesman for the generation as well.
In the last day or so I have listened to hours of 2pac. Even though he died rather young in 1996 he has almost more material released after than when he lived. It's like he is still here relatable 20 years later. 2pac even predicted Bush and Obama! Unbelievable! I've been getting more of the vibe from the underground I feel. Kurt Cobain came from the underground as well.
I don't know how to explain exactly right now but both Kurt Cobain and 2pac don't seem like huge far off rock stars to me. They feel like regular people with allot of passion. I am really glad 2pac put out so much material that you can really get a feel of what he's like. He tells allot of stories. Some of it personal but he always has a real way to say it. I like this vibe that the underground makes sense. Life makes sense. Telling your story makes sense. Expression makes sense. Cross cultural communication. Let's get some creative cross pollination.
I feel back in touch with my young self thinking of 2pac and Kurt Cobain. I feel back to my normal self in the now time with those kinda guys too. I have been getting into industrial music lately and that is a very underground heavy style. There seems to be a real undergound way of thinking and telling stories. I would have to work to spell it out in more details, for now just realising I have these emotional and cultural understandings. Understandings about life I already know and find some articulations in underground music really relatable. I suppose I have my underground way of being too! It's good to have an interest in life, ask questions and look at situations from more than one perspective.
Alright, gotta say goodnight. I will continue stewing and thinking in my dreams. Have had the chance to relax myself in the last days and come to myself again. I'm feeling the focus. Have been cleaning house and its helping with relaxation and creativity. I feel I am able to breath easier and think more clearly. Now that the house is clean I will be filing papers and engaging in creative endeavours on my breaks.
