My experience in dealing with a narcissistic vindictive individual on pretty much a daily basis.
I don't know if any of you have had to deal with anyone like this, but let me tell you, I'd rather eat shards of glass than interact with such individuals. Such a person exists in my life currently and it's a constant battle everyday for me to hold my tongue when in the presence of this individual.
I am the type of person that will allow you to get one free hall pass at giving me attitude or being just plain rude, but that's all I'm going to give you. Hey, maybe you had a bad day or something is bothering you, we're all human. But when your behaviour displays a constant pattern of rude behaviour, disrespectful comments, and just plain being a jerk to everyone, that's where I draw the line.
Such a person exists in my life unfortunately, for the better part of almost 2 years. An adult when seeing with the naked eye, but look deeper and you'll see a little boy throwing tantrums and just looking for a reason to be mad at someone for no reason whatsoever.
There are days when I want to take a baseball bat to this person's face. There are days when I just want to lower myself to this person's level and let my mouth run wild, but I don't. Why you might ask? Because I know the truth. Because I look past the person and think, "Maybe they're like this due to genetics or family background".
Does this make me weak? NO. Does this make it acceptable for this individual to treat me & others the way they do? HECK NO! But I am stronger than you. I know you're not lashing out at me specifically. This is coming from brokeness on your part, and this is how you deal with it. I don't pity you, but I do sympathise with you. How terrible it must be living a life like this, day in & day out. Mad at the world, mad at the people you say you love ( for no reason ).
Do you not see the damage you are causing not only yourself but to those around you? They have done nothing to deserve this, but you fabricate fantasia ideas that make it feel ok for you to behave like this. These people, including myself, have been nothing but civil & decent towards you, yet you WILL find a reason to lash out in anger, or have this repressed anger that you're just waiting to unleash on the first person who walks past.
An individual whom I care for very much, someone whom I love with everything I have, is directly affected by this person daily. The emotional pain & suffering that occurs in this person is sometimes too much to bear for me. I wish I could take away the pain, I wish I could fix this person who is hurting everyone around them, but I can't. It is not my job to fix them.
All in all it is a horrible experience having people like this in your life when you have no other option than to have them in your life. But alas, fear not. Soon, real soon, the people whom I love dearly will be taken away from this individual, and then hopefully they'll see life as something that can be enjoyed. No worry about, "Why is this individual finding fault with everything I do?" or "Soon the time will come when I have to face this person head on again".
If I cannot remove YOU from the people I love, I can do my best in removing THEM from YOU! Selfish? I don't care. This has gone on for long enough & if there's something I can do about it, you can be damned sure I'm going to do it.