Today I sat in my backyard reading and just observing my surroundings. The grass, the birds, the rain, the ants, the sounds of the world and my thoughts.
Peace was at hand until I started to entertain my thoughts. As the thoughts about the day ahead, the do list and the "what will I do next " swirl in my head, I asked myself why. Why?
Why am I choosing anything other than peace? Why am I choosing to believe that I want more than peace? Are my thoughts about anything other than peace even real?
For a moment, just an instant, I realized something. It was more like a feeling than an intellectual realization. I felt as though I finally understood the source of my anxiety. For just an instant I saw that I was making all these thoughts up. They were not real, they were just thoughts about fear, anxiety, lack, and loss that had no real basis in reality and no basis in who I really am. Reality being the universal plan. At that precise moment, a tremendous weight was lifted from me. I felt a profound peace. I felt and understood what true freedom was.
That is all I really want. Peace.
All it takes is my willingness to let go of what is not mine to do. Which is everything but perceive rightly. My job is to perceive from the eyes of God with love, peace, joy and oneness. As long as I am willing, I will not fail. If I am not willing, my freedom awaits when I am willing, without judgment.
I am grateful to know that I am guaranteed my Peace.