This week marks the 3rd year since I graduated in college. It's been a long year now since I carried my responsibility as daughter, sister, friend, and person. I often think about the question of my professor during our last day of practice for graduation: "Who would you be 3-5 years from now?"
WHO AM I NOW?
Well, I'm still the Jessa who played video games and a humoristic person. Jessa who loves to watch action movies and sleep late at night. Jessa who loves coffee and pie. But I can also tell that there are things that changed.
How Am I Different?
I'm braver than I was before. A brave person who went to Manila to find jobs and ended up looking for one in Pampanga and worked away from home. A brave person who is not afraid of bills since I've learned to managed it well. Hehehe. I'm braver than before because I can now cross the street and eat alone. Braver person who can now celebrate holidays away from home.
I got organized.I was able to enhance this skill. Hahaha. I was able to organize my things without my mother. (Achievement!) I've learned that being organized will help you to finish all your task smoothly and live your life orderly.
I have redefined “frustrated and stressed”. Like most people, I have frustrating days and get stressed. I realized that being frustrated and stressed is not bad but it's a sign that you're growing up and you're matured enough.
I have identified the true meaning of "wants and needs". From the time I shouted my first ever "its PAYDAY" , I identified the difference between wants and needs. This is something that made me a matured woman. I was able to prioritize needs and get something I want but not all the time.
I have learned to make the negative thoughts to a positive one. When I was looking for a job I told myself was that I wasn't enough that is why no one is accepting me. Every time I had my interview, I always think that I cannot make it. I realized that if you think the negative side of it, it will turn out negative. Then that is the time I was able to unleash my optimistic attitude in life and finally got a job and got promoted.
I realized that It’s OK to change your mind.I’ve learned to say “I don’t know” more often, instead of jumping to quick conclusions that I’ll later regret. I love being corrected or having someone point something out to me. One day I might see my path going a certain way and then my path might go a slightly different direction because I changed my mind and that would be okay. Big change is a big risk but it can mean a big increase in happiness levels.
"Just when I think I have learned the way to live. Life changes." - Hugh Prather
The things that changed and happened to me for the 3 year period of my life after graduation, I can say that it's not what I expected. It is a million miles away from my expectation but I've learned a lot and made me the better person I am now. I AM PROUD OF MY SELF! :)
