As far as I know, there is no time for empty space in nature, so cycle and circle with it, roles to be filled, lives to be lived, ideas to be imagined. Fuck if I know ...

I'd say the only way to "succeed" is to put the goal and the point ahead of you and to do whatever it is for others, otherwise it's just counting costs and that gets nowhere fast.

:) Still you are one of the "original gangsters" here so that is a piece of history in it's own right, plus, you've made one of the most original bullshit artistry :D which for some reason is more truthful than mainstream editorial content.

And now I'm a bit drunk, on my way from the bar to get some moneh so I don't drag them down :D so think of my opinion what you will. .. In any case I've always tried to be there and help friends, I'm not sure how much is helpful, and how much I'm diluting myself. But I can relate to losses and feeling down, and there isn't much point to it maybe just to live with the burden and forgive. Whatever it is, you got it, keep giving :)